Wednesday, August 16, 2006
There is one specific class that I love as much as I hate. I love thefun, exciting approach to lessons and the thrill of presentations, the raking of brains to charm my classmates, the laughter :) I detest the bench marking, sterotyping and brainwashing of ideas to my "think a lot" head, which affects me so.
I came out of that class feeling pretty stressed. - not stressed - the word should be proactive - in the sense which might lead me to future stresses. It simply heightens up my ambitious, "simply being in a lot of things yet accomplishing none" state of mind, increases worries, anxieties and fears. It's the continuation of the class I did well in my first Semester in year one - totally liking and hating it at the same time. This class is none other than Communication Management and Strategies.
I do see the importance of being able to relate your ideas well to others. To express yourself clearly and all :) It's just that the teacher or maybe the objective of the course is somehow brainwashing us to value achievements, "zainess", "politically correct" way of answering interview questions. Achievements - in a sense to stand out from the rest of the other resumes and interviewees. Nothing wrong with my sentence. Nothing wrong with that either.
But as I was complaining to my friend when I walked out of the seminar room, that I dont like what they are advocating. Like everything you say is about communication. Is intentional. Nothing much is out of the joy and fun of it. Or even of the innocence of it anymore.
They are like "brainwashing" us in terms of valuing achievements in this elite society - Elitism - the word is. And as I, I must confessed, still finding my grounding in God's word, was affected initially. I was telling my non-Christian friend that I mean I dont want to find my value or worth in the achievements that I accomplished. And being a Christian myself, I must secure my worth in Him and not be measured accordingly to the world's standards. And my friend replied: Yar, I dont get it. Why must they make us up into highflying managers and all. Isn't it wrong to simply want to open a shop and sell stuff and be happy?
It's stable friends like these that keep me sane. :) And for the very first time, I gave her a big hug. hahaha..
And you know what I sometimes like to do? The exact opposite. And this is the way I sometimes view people as well. A rebel at heart I am :)
After satisfied with all my nonsencial rantings, this is what I want to put across. I put things very simply to people (which doesnt mean I am straightforward in thinking) I think this semester will be a trying semester. Especially I have such a class 2 times a week! And my commitments, be it to church or crusade or even my personal values I belief in, might be tested. Yet what I look forward to at the end of it all, is a stronger, commited and grounded servant of the Lord Jesus Christ.
Somethings people just take it as a pinch of salt. And that I will learn. Till the world has no hold on me.
Looking back on the experiences I have gone through, I really do not want to fall back into it's trap. I really want to move on. And it's only by the power of the Holy Spirit I will.
I am proud -
I am proud to be a Child of God.
My Sunshine @| 4:46 AM
